Thoughts...

Yesterday I was very angry again at the government and what they did to us. Without going into too much detail right now, lies were fabricated about us and the unfairness of it all makes me want to cry whenever I think about it. And they don't care! They're not a business that really has to account for what it does.

If there is any way to get any sort of justice we will do it, but so far Zac has only been stonewalled by anyone he talks too. There is no way we can stick with this job. I still can't go into things too much, but having people smugly make up stuff about us, falsely accuse us, and just overall treat us unfairly to the 100th degree is probably the worst thing we have ever experienced. And to have it affect our lives, not just being some trash someone personally believes.

A couple of weeks ago, I was driving my 15 year-old neighbor to our basketball game, and she was telling me how a girl at school was spreading lies about her and she didn't know what to do, and it wasn't fair. She'd been one of the only people when the girl was new last year to befriend her. We had a good conversation about stuff like that, how life isn't fair, how we can't control what people say or do, but we can control how we respond. I mentioned that the Saviour himself was the utmost example of unfair treatment. How can we be like him without experiencing some of what he went through? Now that we're facing this trial, I need to remind myself of that.

Reading the Ensign today really helped uplift me, and then these quotes from LDS Nuggets were perfect in helping to really put things in perspective. We will all have trials and difficulties, this is one of ours.

"When sore trials come upon us, it's time to deepen our faith in God, to work hard, and to serve others. Then He will heal our broken hearts. He will bestow upon us personal peace and comfort. Those great gifts will not be destroyed, even by death."

—Russell M. Nelson, "Jesus Christ—the Master Healer," Ensign, Nov. 2005, 85

"Many of you are going to have very difficult experiences: disappointment, heartbreak, bereavement, defeat. You are going to be tested and tried. I just want you to know that if you don’t get what you think you ought to get, remember, God is the gardener here. He knows what He wants you to be. Submit yourselves to His will. Be worthy of His blessings, and you will get His blessings."

—Hugh B. Brown, "The Currant Bush," New Era, Apr. 2001, 12